Gate 4      

In times of testing and trying

I will find myself doubting

And my soul, it is mourning

Where is the beauty in suffering?

Why should I complain

Or think of my gain?

Master do what you please,

Your will Father, yes it is.

Oh truly I am reminded

The story has glorious end.

And it’s not ‘bout the selfish me

It should all be for Your Glory.

Pauline - Bicol

I pray to stay

The Lord has an assignment for me. Yes. I’ve got things to do too like Abraham, Moses, David, Paul, Peter and many others whom we know from the Bible. You, me, and all believers along with our forefathers were given a special task to accomplish. It is thrilling and exciting to imagine how and why a mighty, sovereign and powerful God would choose to use me.

I need to be fit for the role and, therefore, I must enroll in a course called character development. There will be  tests to pass, people to face, trials to overcome, battles to win and hardships to endure. It is sure to be difficult for it will burn me, smash and crush me---me and my pride, my hatred and my impure thoughts to name a few. He knows what to do with me more than I do. He is the Wise Teacher and Skilled Potter. He wants me to be a broken vessel. More than skill, He wants character.

It is His reminder to me every single day. It is and will be uncomfortable but I pray to stay.

-Pauline  26- Bicol

Journal Entry

It feels strange to be away from home. I’m far from the familiar people and places I am comfortable with. To be here in Samal for AOT is quite challenging. I must admit. EVERYTHING IS NEW.

But I thank the Lord for a beautiful privilege I am given. I got to meet new people and be inspired by them, to eat new food and be amazed of it and of course to learn a new language and be connected with the locals. The training has just started but it all made me see how the Lord was good to me. He has given me brand new family and friends to learn, laugh and love with. Indeed an experience worthy of the distance.

-Pau, 26-Bicol